I’m trying so hard to stay open
To be honest about
What I’m going through
At first it was shock
Then anger
And now I just feel confused
Why walk away
From something so good?
No relationship is perfect
You said we shouldn’t
Have to try so hard
But I disagree
I thought it was worth it
There were so many things
With us that were good
We connected in so many ways
And I always felt
Your emotional distance
That was hard for me
But I stayed
And what’s hard for me now
Is with each day that passes
I’m less angry
And starting to remember
All of the things
That I loved about you
How I felt
When we were together
And there’s an emptiness in me
I’ve never felt before
I’m trying to fill up the space
And feel better
But it’s a pain that I can’t ignore
It eats away at my stomach
I wake up dripping with sweat
In the night
It creeps up on me
When I least expect it
I break down
And think how
This just doesn’t feel right
But it was your decision
Now you have to live
With knowing that you quit
And I wouldn’t take you back
If you asked
Now I know that you can’t give
Me what I need
Whether it’s who you are
Or maturity
I can’t wait around
For you to learn how
To do things
That should come naturally
And what’s hard for me now
Is I’ve gotta learn how
To keep looking straight ahead
I can’t keep going back in my mind
Replaying all of
The nice things you’ve said
Because it’s keeping me
From moving forward
And my heart keeps beating
Too fast
I’ve gotta believe
That there’s someone better
For me
Out there
And I won’t have to ask
He’ll know who he is
And what he wants
He’ll tell me how he feels
I won’t have to hold back
I’ll relax
And express
Myself
And he’ll love that in me