“Was it all just narcissism
In the guise of spiritual growth?
Or was every experience I had
What I needed
To prepare me for this role?”
“…I don’t want to end one more
Relationship with a poem
Hand over my feelings
All tied up in a bow…”
“…But fairy tales do come true
Cuz everything brought me to you
Yeah me to you
Now it’s me and you…”
“I won’t regret loving you
And I’ll be fine
If you decide
You don’t wanna be mine
But it’s killing me
In the meantime”
“Who am I to be here?
I thought to myself.
Enjoying the sound of the ocean
crashing against the cliffs
in a steady rhythm…”
“I’m so messed up
I can’t sleep at night
I keep re-playing you
Kissing me in my mind…”
“I was warned
That I’d be drawn to you
Before the night we met
That you were gonna lead me
To another morning with regret…”
“It wasn’t clear at the time
Why you came into my life
I was just goin’ to a party
To meet an old friend of mine…”
“…It’s running through my veins
It’s the air I need to breathe
I can’t turn it off
I’ll never stop
These words and melodies…”
“…My heart begins to race
But I know this isn’t about me
I’m just the one that’s being stung
For confronting the queen bee…”
“…Yeah I know this winding road
Will take me
Away from what I’ve known
And I know if I stay open
I’ll find my way home…”
“…Conversations in my head
Expectations never met
I didn’t ask for
What I didn’t get…”
“Are you someone
with big dreams and ambitions,
a constant rub
to create something new?…”
“I want a new word for love
It’s been devalued
And demeaned
Because these days
It’s used in reference to
Pretty much everything…”
“Most of the time
I’m grateful
That I’m on a creative path
That I’m following my heart…”
“…Willingness breaks through
Like a blade of grass
Searching for sunlight
Through the cement…”
“…I was just trying to be like
The women I admire
So courageous in their
Commitment
To speak the truth…”
“…Why I can’t I sing
And play guitar?
Spit white girl poetry like
I’ve got something to say?…”
“…To smile at strangers
To let traffic merge
To be kind and listen
To face fear and learn…”
“…I don’t want to go backwards
To loose all I’ve gained
I can no longer
Drink you interesting…”
“I always gravitated
To the girl
With purple hair
Eccentric style
And an attitude
Like she didn’t care…”
“…I think there’s a way
To be vulnerable and strong
At the same time
I’ve just never tried before…”
“…I keep coming back
To the present moment
And getting out of
The future and past…”
“When we meet
It’s usually
Yes or no
I’m pretty quick to decide
If we click or we don’t…”
“…So do I check in
Or do I check out?
What’s the better solution
To my current dis-ease?…”
“…When I linger at the bar
And order one more drink
Because I don’t want to go home
And think…”
“…I don’t know exactly
When the change happened
But I feel like everyday
I’m becoming more me”
“I think that I know
What I’ve yet to admit
My thoughts have been
Lingering on you…”