I’m ready
To peel back the layers
And I’m curious to find
What’s there
I’m tired of the patterns
Of my resistance
And of pretending
That I don’t care
I’m tired of giving
Paying
Asking
Listening
All with the intention
Of how I’m received
And I think that I also
Do all these things
To deflect the attention
Away from me
So I get to control
How deep you go
And what you get to see
And I’m tired of feeling like
Entertainment
Living for the stories
That I’ll later use
To make you laugh
Or further mold
How you see me
I’m tired of that
Too
I want to be light
And open
And free
I want to be still
And serene
I want to be quiet
And stop asking questions
So you have the chance
To ask me
I’m ready
To let go of my vices
And be fully present
In all that I do
I’m ready
For the discomfort
And anxiety
I don’t need anything else
To help me through
I’ve been focusing so much
Of my energy outwards
Well now I’m turning that fire in
So I can burn through
All of the layers
I’m ready
To begin