I can sense that it’s coming
By the discomfort I feel
In my body it just
Hasn’t happened yet
Willingness breaks through
Like a blade of grass
Searching for sunlight
Through the cement
Plates shifting
To make room
For a new idea
That comes
From beyond me
An inspired thought!
Old habits in behavior
Once gripped
Fall away
Replaced by
Hope and light
And love
In surrender
I’m delivered
Time and time again
Exactly what I’ve
Been searching for
Pounding the cement
Questioning
Why?
How?
When?
When all I needed to do
Was to simply
Let go
Yet how quickly I forget
And take the reins again
Thinking I know best
That I’ve conquered
My addictions
That I can manage
Moderation
That the planning
Won’t kick in
And grow into
An obsession
That I won’t start
Questioning
Why?
How?
When?
Exactly as I’ve done
Every time before
Until beaten into
A state of humility
Where I’m willing
To receive
Once more