I have an insatiable
Hunger
A thirst that cannot
Be quenched
I’ve heard it described
As a God-sized
Hole inside
The desire to fill it’s
Intense
But don’t feel sorry for me
For one second
I take this
And use it
To my advantage
My focus is pointed
Work ethic gigantic
Desire to create
And express
What’s inside
So strong that it simply
Explodes
Years of repressing
And listening to “shoulds”
Dulling my feelings
Trying to control
Have made it
Abundantly clear
That I will not do that
Anymore
No I’m gonna love huge
Give it all away
Break all my secrets
Risk judgment
And loss
I welcome
A natural falling away
Of people
Who enabled
The person that I was
I’m not interested
In rationalizations
Used to justify
Inaction
Or avoid confronting
Fear
I’m inspired by
The warriors
With complicated pasts
Who have fought
To overcome
And are wise
Beyond their years
Who value honesty
Above all else
Including how
They might appear
And don’t tell me
To relax
I’ve wasted enough time
I have some
Catching up
To do
I’ll brace for the pain
And keep trying
To help others
Because I know
That’s the only
Thing that will fill
This God-sized
Hole inside
That keeps me
Driving forward
I cannot be stopped
I’m gonna love huge
Give it all away
Live this life
Out loud
Exactly as I want