I want everything to be
Awesome
Pretty much all the time
Which I acknowledge is totally
Unrealistic
And explains why I liked to get high
I want you to love me
To think I’m the coolest
Girl that you’ve ever met
To have an entire room
Of people
Totally cracking up
Thinking that I’m so multi-faceted
A business school student
That’s so creative and fun
I want you to picture
What I was like as a child
And be curious about
The woman I’ve become
I want our connection to be
Intense
Like the whole world around us
Just falls away
I want you to tell me things
You’ve never told anyone
So I can show you
How understanding I am
And then make it all okay
I want you to be
Impressed
By the things I’ve acquired
Material possessions I have
And not see that I’m clinging
To this proof of success
In an attempt
To not feel so bad
I want you to meet my parents
And see how amazingly
Cool that they are
So you remember that I come
From such a normal family
When I start sharing my truth
Later on
I want you to be slightly
Intimidated
To look up to me
Even when I’m sitting down
But at the same time to challenge me
With intellectual conversation
Otherwise I’ll get bored
And move on
I want you to think
I’m the most beautiful and sexy
Woman that you’ve ever seen
To be your go-to fantasy
That guarantees orgasm
When you’re masturbating
I want to be rich
Not just comfortable
To be able to do whatever I like
I’ll climb my way up
To the top of that ladder
To prove
That everything is all right
I want to be an excellent citizen
To be politically informed
And always vote
To donate my time
And money to charities
Never turning my head
Pretending that I don’t know
I honestly want to reach
The next plane of existence
To yoga practice and meditate
My way into bliss
So everyone will be fascinated
Social circles a buzz
“Did you hear about Sarah?
How enlightened she is?”
But really
I just want to be peaceful
Non-reactive and kind
And maybe to be an inspiration
To others looking to make
Positive changes in their lives
And eventually it would be nice
To not want so much
To learn how to live and have fun
Just watching the story
Unfold around me
I think that might be
Pretty awesome